I'm sorry if i've been acting insane for a while now, while I am growing as a person, I am realizing of the stuff I had, the friends I had, the life I had and much more else
I just hope someday I get my reward, for fighting, for keeping my head up, for going forward, after all i've been through, I still have so many things to process in my mind
Nowadays i'm constantly trying to be happy, optimistic and everything I can while being in any situation
I have big plans, huge plans for the future, and it will not be easy, but I'll make them real, no matter how impossible it seems
I just wish whatever the future holds for me is good, otherwise i'll be forced to fight back, because I refuse to give up something i'm 100% sure that will change my life, and others too
But, I am unable to currently, for many reasons
I have tried my best, despite being in the 3 worst years of my life, and I will move on, until I get my reward
And if I achieve all of this, i'll be the happiest person in this planet, but for now, action is needed, and nothing is giving me the fuel to start...
Seeing everything I am capable of, yet i'm stuck in a void of endless planning and anxiety attacks without being able to initiate action towards these dreams
Whatever happens in the next few years, i'll still be here, no matter what, and it breaks my heart because it's painful
I just hope all of this will be worth it, i'll reach those dreams and be living the happiest life knowing people love what I do
But for now all I have to do is give this situation time, after that it's nothing but chasing those dreams until I reach them
Hope this helps clarify a bit what i'm feeling, my future means the world to me, and hope this helps you understand some stuff about me, which I have never talked about before
No matter how many mental breakdowns I have, i'll be there, never giving up
Thanks for reading
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